Two journals in a row about my brain?? Weiiiiird.

So after seeing Phantom this weekend (which totally ruled, Anthony Warlow was AMAZING) one of my friends taught me how to "Facebook stalk" so I could see photos of this girl we'd been friends with at school.

so I finally found said photos...and I actually had to read the captions under them to figure out which one she was. Bear in mind i haven't seen this girl for over 4 years, and I showed them to another friend and she said "Oh yeah, she hasn't changed that much." - but I couldn't recognise her! Which prompted me to actually think about her and I realised I'd actually forgotten almost everything about her. Like one of my closest friends at school, and I couldn't even remember what she looked like, or what she sounded like or what she used to say, and really had to think hard about things we'd done together.

I mean, I know I have a bad memory for details, but that's pretty ridiculous. It makes me wonder if that's just what happens or if it's just me. I saw a girl who I used to be friends with last week, and I had only not seen her for 10 months, and I'm struggling to get details on her.

Or maybe I'm just overthinking.

My fiance's grandma died yesterday, so I think it's just put me in a bit of a weird mood.



Holiday Projects
Rain is...
Start on manga - writing up story
Drawings for ~Kayje - researching
Collab with *MarikLover666
Collab with ~MokubaLover - lineart complete
Collab with ~amayonolune
Beat fanart

Only one project left!!

I went to print my portfolio (2nd last project) this morning, and I walked into the printers, and there were 6 other girls from my year all printing too. It was very funny, none of us had had much, if any sleep, or breakfast. But it was nice all freaking out about our portfolios together lol.

So now I only have a "reflective" report left, which shouldn't take long and them I'm finished! Hooray!!! To celebrate (kind of) two of my friends and I are going to Sydney this weekend to shop and see Phantom of the Opera. Should be awesome.

On a slightly down note, I got a message from my dad this morning while at the printers saying his dog died. She was very sick with arthritis, so I'm not really surprised. Still, it's sad



Holiday Projects
"Rain is..." - colouring stage
Start on manga
Realistic and watercolour practise
Drawings for ~Kayje
Collab with *MarikLover666
Collab with ~MokubaLover - sketching stage
Collab with ~amayonolune

I got one of my projects back yesterday (a DI which I'm only half happy with. Was aiming for an HD) and ...well, I'll stick the pictures of it up, but needless to say I went a little bit wild with the idea of a street style/Harajuku style sleepwear range.

When I was getting feedback for it, one of the tutors (the one who works in the industry and likes my drawing style) said "It's just so you isn't it. Not mainstream at all. You've created this entirely new style, like Gothic Pop."

...is that a good thing?? I think I like the term gothic pop, and I can see how that applies to how I dress at uni. I wear a black shirt and black pants at work all the time, so I tend to go in the completely opposite direction at uni: big boots, bright stockings, big eye makeup - but I do wear just jeans and a t-shirt half the time too. But I'm not sure how to take being rejected from mainstream. I know I'm not really mainstream, but I like normal things too like Matchbox 20 and trashy tv shows.

I think I'm feeling a bit...displaced? Because it made me realise even among my arty peers (who are all weird as anything) I could be considered on the outskirts of normal. I'm used to it at work and among my friends because I know I have non-mainstream interests, but being considered "different" by people who only shop at op-shops and make their own facial cream from the flowers in their gardens...well, that's just...weird.



Holiday Projects
"Rain is..."
Start on manga
Realistic and watercolour practise
Drawings for ~Kayje
Collab with *MarikLover666
Collab with ~MokubaLover
Collab with ~amayonolune

Why is it that the lovely people in life flitter away so quickly like butterflies, and the people who make your life hell are like some cancerous growth you just can't get rid of?

After 12 wonderful months, my lovely boss is going back to Melbourne. This is his last week in Koko Canberra. I honestly think I'm going to sob like a loon at his going away party on sunday.

My last year at Koko has been filled with the most lovely people. People who are gorgeous, and inspire me to be a better person. People who are always there when you need them, and who actually put their friends needs above their own needs when the occasion calls for it.

Grant was like the big brother figure, he held us all together at the start. He looked out for us, and offered to beat up people being mean to us (even if it was jokingly). I wanted to work hard for him, because his praise made all the shitty customers worth it. I've never had a boss like him before, and I know I'll be lucky to have one again.

Now he's going, and even though the ties through work have now solidified in to friendships that will last even after we all too eventually leave, I can't help but be a bit sad that the first original Koko is leaving.

I will miss Grantus terribly, but at least I have inherited two more "brothers" in his place. Dieter, who I can geek out about art supplies with and who worries about me when I'm sick (such a sweet kid) and Matt, who stirs me terribly but would beat the snot out of anyone who hurts me.

I guess this is what they call a "silver lining"?



Projects
*MarikLover666 chocolate icecream
~MokubaLover cake!
~nynn hot chocolate affogato
Collab with *MarikLover666
Collab with ~MokubaLover - Rough lineart
Collab with ~amayonolune
Spreads and cover for GD graphic novel

ok, so it hasn't been going fantastically anyway (stupid tutor giving me a hard time about not handing in enough pages of the comic) and then I accidently stumble across a Avatar spoiler while innocently checking my DA stuffs.

I don't understand. WHY? WHY would someone do that? Why would you put spoilers where people can read them? Most of us are waiting until July to find out what happens - I think I should be able to peruse an art site without having the end of a series ruined for me. Why would you read the book 2 months before the series (which is good, whereas I've heard the book is junk) and then spread vicious spoilers all over the internet???

Thanks douche bag, you ruined my day.

(ps. this isn't procrastinating! I'm waiting for a file to save on my slow computer)



Projects
*MarikLover666 chocolate icecream
~MokubaLover cake!
~nynn hot chocolate affogato
Collab with *MarikLover666
Collab with ~MokubaLover - Rough lineart
Collab with ~amayonolune
Spreads and cover for GD graphic novel